LMAO!

I just read my last journal...
Sounded like it needs some updating...
My life's turned around a bit...

Im so proud!
I half own a house...
YES, i said HALF own...
It's a fixer upper...
But so far i love it!

Im applying NON STOP for jobs...
Anywhere and everywhere, as long as it pays...

I have centrelink appointments...
So i can try and pay my part of the house...

Ringing up places to organise a party...
A surprise party for my boyfriend...

OH YEAH! I have a boyfriend whos taking care of me...
Love and care...

Im trying to go ack to school...
Just the things i have to do during the day are making that i a lil hard atm...

Im making new friends...
New RANDOM friends...

Stuff like that...
Ya know it is a really good turn around...

Eh... I can't be bothered saying much...
I miss my old life, with my old friends...
My old grades, my old lifestyle...
I miss how i didnt care...

My old life was...
Boring, yer i guess thats the word...
Id sit home every night...
Watching tv, and movies...
Went to school only had one friend...
Was one of the top of my class...
Got publiched in a book...
And was top of my class...
Against drugs and against smoking...
Always thought the popular girls were unhappy...
FAKES PLASTIC, thats what i thought...

My new life is...
Well er new i guess...
I always have a bf...
Always in some kind of trouble...
Never at home...
Never at school either...
A heavy smoker and heavy drinker...
Failing most classes cause i dont turn up to do the work...
Not a single person i'd call friend...
Not a single person a can trust...
No sorry i lie, my family, and my 1 semi friend...

I always thought that by now...
Id have a job...
Or be in a happy relationship at least...
But na...
Im unemployed...
And unhappy...
My bf's an ass hole...
And i dunno why i stay with him...
I dunno it just seems like lately...
Im just going through the motions...

Life doesn't seem like a happy...
Colourful world like it used to...
It seems sad and full of pain and suffering...
Every time i open the page of the paper to read some tradgedy...
I have to hold back the tears...

Half the time my "friends" don't see it...
Hell my family don't see it...
I hide it so well now...
It's become easy...
I'm sad, all the time...
Depressed, in pain...
No one sees it, i smile and i jump around...
But it's never the truth...
Everyone i know think i'm a slut...
Cause i always talk about sex...
I hate horses, i hate math, i hate planes...
Thats what my ppl talk about...
Sex is a universal language...
And somehow it makes everyone giggle, and smile...
Even cheers me up...

Still though...
I just wish that someone would see me...
See into my heart and sole...
I just want a friend...
A true friend who knows who i am...
Not people who pressume...

But i dont see that ever happening...
Not in the world we live in...
So i guess ill just have to wear my mask a lil longer...

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WRAITH!
GOODBYE JOHN!
LOVE U TEDDY!
LOVE YOU JACINTA! (my fiance HAHAHA) -inside joke-
HUGS GAZ!
I HATE U PIP!
I WANT A BANANA!
HELLO DEAD PPL!
GOODBYE WEIRD PPL!
.............................
WAIT! Thats me

Ummmmm, well added some new stuff up here.
There will be more to come, like the stuff at school.
And yer, wat more mmmmm.

CONGRADS JUSTINE AND KEVIN! (they got theyre ls XD)
MISS YA MARLY!
LOVE YOU CAITY!
MISSED YA CODES!
Im running out of things to say... so
BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Ok i wrote a journal explaining a fight...
Hey its a memory id like to keep so i wrote bout it...
But its gone now...
My friend laughs at my pride about the fight...
But for me to JUST DEFEND myself and not throw any punches...
Its a hard thing...
So i am proud that a held back...
I am proud that i defended myself...
I am proud that i am not sitting in the dark cowarding away...
And i am proud that i protected myself... And my friends...
I am also proud that i could walk away from a guy that i am absolutely in love with... Despite what he did...
And even better i am proud that i told her to go shove it when she tried to apologise...

So yes, fighting is bad! I HATE IT! To get that straight...
But i am proud of myself because of the fact that i gave up and walked away... I dont care what u guys think... However i do care about what my friends think because if u really were my friend you'd know me and you'd be proud that i did it...

I have a new bf, Im taking it slow with him, And finally i have got a handle on my life, SO YES I AM PROUD!

Hiya!!!!!
Hehehehehehehehe =]

HAPPY HAPPY HEHEHE
BANANA!!!!!
Im back to me again YAYS

Ya know just like everyone
I have GOOD days
And BAD days

And i think this is a good day
Hehehehe =]

Wat does it really matter
No one ever reads this shit anyways lol

But i had to say ONE thing

A LONELY SEPTEMBER - PLAIN WHITE T'S
YOU SHOULDA SAID NO - TAYLOR SWIFT
R my two songs... Right now they describe my love life
PERFECTLY
Listen to them they r great "love" songs lol

Anyways im out guys
Ill write something new EVENTUALLY

_Punk Princess Out_