Eh... I can't be bothered saying much...
I miss my old life, with my old friends...
My old grades, my old lifestyle...
I miss how i didnt care...

My old life was...
Boring, yer i guess thats the word...
Id sit home every night...
Watching tv, and movies...
Went to school only had one friend...
Was one of the top of my class...
Got publiched in a book...
And was top of my class...
Against drugs and against smoking...
Always thought the popular girls were unhappy...
FAKES PLASTIC, thats what i thought...

My new life is...
Well er new i guess...
I always have a bf...
Always in some kind of trouble...
Never at home...
Never at school either...
A heavy smoker and heavy drinker...
Failing most classes cause i dont turn up to do the work...
Not a single person i'd call friend...
Not a single person a can trust...
No sorry i lie, my family, and my 1 semi friend...

I always thought that by now...
Id have a job...
Or be in a happy relationship at least...
But na...
Im unemployed...
And unhappy...
My bf's an ass hole...
And i dunno why i stay with him...
I dunno it just seems like lately...
Im just going through the motions...

Life doesn't seem like a happy...
Colourful world like it used to...
It seems sad and full of pain and suffering...
Every time i open the page of the paper to read some tradgedy...
I have to hold back the tears...

Half the time my "friends" don't see it...
Hell my family don't see it...
I hide it so well now...
It's become easy...
I'm sad, all the time...
Depressed, in pain...
No one sees it, i smile and i jump around...
But it's never the truth...
Everyone i know think i'm a slut...
Cause i always talk about sex...
I hate horses, i hate math, i hate planes...
Thats what my ppl talk about...
Sex is a universal language...
And somehow it makes everyone giggle, and smile...
Even cheers me up...

Still though...
I just wish that someone would see me...
See into my heart and sole...
I just want a friend...
A true friend who knows who i am...
Not people who pressume...

But i dont see that ever happening...
Not in the world we live in...
So i guess ill just have to wear my mask a lil longer...